“What is it like to be in love?”

“Free. It feels free, like there’s nothing that can stop me, nothing can hold me down.
It feels as if I can do anything because of love and I’m free of the fear of failure because,
even if I can’t do everything, at least at the end of the day,
there’s still me and him. When all else fails, love won’t.”

Reign on Me series

Sunday, January 16, 2011

A Little Word...

It's a little sad that I have to actually defend myself in such a way, but certain people and certain comments have propelled me to do such a thing.

I am in post-secondary. This site and my stories, as much as I love them and enjoy them, are not my first priority.
I shouldn't even be posting at this time because I'm already back in school. However, since my holidays consisted of only ten days, I decided to be generous to readers and continue posting until the end of January just to give a break from the hiatus.

For those of you who say I am selfish because I don't pay attention to other writers, I suggest you hold your comments and judgements to yourselves prior to saying things and talking about circumstances which you do not fully comprehend.

This semester alone, I have 5 classes. I have at least 120hours promised to working at the hospital, 40hours promised to mental health patients in a community organization for the next ten weeks. I also work in the medical department for an insurance company and teach two different levels of Japanese at a high school in the evenings. And this is without including time for studying, homework and assignments.

And just to stress how little time I have, I'm going to explain something that those of you who have pushed me this far do not deserve to know.
I am a patient myself. I'm on a cocktail of medications, I see several specialists every month and when I'm exacerbated, it is to a degree where I cannot even leave my bed; I'm practically paralyzed.

So, I apologize if I seem selfish simply because I cannot afford time to other people. At the same time, how dare you judge me unfairly. I could have given up on this site, I could have stopped writing, but I persevere to do so because I love it and because my readers - those who appreciate it - motivate me.

I am living my life to the fullest capacity I can and no one - NO ONE - has the right to pass judgement until they understand everything I go through.

I'll live my life, you live yours and do not ever presume to dictate to me about my faults when you cannot acknowledge and own up to your own.


1] I am not other writers and they are not me.

2] Obviously you do not understand how busy I am if you have to continue to comment as you are.

3] I have read other writer's work and I have recommended them. They're advertised on my site. Have I done so lately? No. Why? Reread this post.

4] I apologize if other writers are hurt because I don't read their stuff, but it's not singling out anyone. It's everyone because I'm too busy. And I have never said I didn't like a writer's fic, so I don't know why that's even being brought up. If it's a matter of fandom - everyone has fandoms they follow and those they do not. That's up to the reader's discretion.

5] What you said is bashing; whether or not you choose to acknowledge it.


Anonymous said...

I think your wonderful from the bottom of my heart<3 You were the first person to introduce me to fanfics. You were the person to insprie me to write my own. You were the person that i would wait paiently in till you post a fic it and get all happy and read. For you i would wait paiently. No matter what people say dont listen to them because haters can never be as talent as you. I hope you understand what im saying and take this to heart. I love your work<3
-mireya from the u.s

Ddangkoma2010 said...

You go girl! you've seriously given so much time and energy to this site, and although i love it when you post, please take care of your health. I, and your other true supporters will wait patiently for you no matter if you post a day from now, a week from now, a year from now, or even if you decide to never post again. Those that say you are selfish, etc, are no where near as good as you, so ignore them. <3 you, cheonsa!!!

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry that people are being rude to you for what sounds like completely stupid reasons. It is a given that you would have a busy life outside of writing and I really commend you for being so strong in dealing with these people.

Miabella said...

I'm really impressed that you continue to write despite all of your time constrictions and other [larger] obligations. I'm sorry that other people can't understand why you don't write as often as they would like, and that they confront you about it as if it were your fault (which it isn't). Please keep doing what you're doing, and even if your writing has to take a back seat, we'll all be waiting for you when you come back. C:

Cheonsa hwaiting! x]

Anonymous said...

People have actually said such things? Writers do have lives aside from stories and fandom but it seems people tend to ignore that. You aren't selfish, they are.

Anonymous said...

Those people have no right to say those things to you nor do they have the right to be rude to you. I'm a new reader or yours and I appreciate every piece of work you put out. But to have people demand this of you even though you have other things to do is infuriating. I can just imagine how their words must've sadden you in some way. You are definitely not selfish and is one of the best writers I've ever had the chance to meet:)

catherine ndja said...

wow. I just read this. i can't understand why do people do that.
You. Are. Amazing.
With everything you do, you still manage to make stories. The real one. I fall in love to fanfictions and that's all because of you.
So, I support you. I will always support you and your works. Just remember that you are amazing. :)