“What is it like to be in love?”

“Free. It feels free, like there’s nothing that can stop me, nothing can hold me down.
It feels as if I can do anything because of love and I’m free of the fear of failure because,
even if I can’t do everything, at least at the end of the day,
there’s still me and him. When all else fails, love won’t.”

Reign on Me series
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Saturday, August 24, 2013

[RT1C2] Flying High

rate: PG13
words: 8107
(Chapter 2 of Y1 of the Requiem at Twilight series)


Chapter Two: Flying High


Mid-March

The ground had warmed enough for flying lessons to begin. The flying instructor had explained that should anyone fall, he did not want them to feel as if they were smacking into cement because of the cold ground. He did not explain why he would not stop said student from hitting the ground upon falling. 

Flying lessons, while mandatory in other schools around the world was, apparently, not so important in Korea (or, Asia, Kyuhyun assumed). The lessons themselves were optional and, when he showed up, there was only 23 other First Years in attendance. He hoped that did not foreshadow the future of the class in relation to those who were attending. They were gathered in the large fields behind the campus, hidden behind the large width of the residence building. Even farther beyond the fields were the familiar, wooden structures of a Quidditch pitch.

Indeed, he questioned why he was there, and then turned to the witch beside him who gripped her broom in her hands and smiled excitedly. Although he would have much preferred to be alone, Kim Taeyeon had rarely left his side during classes and meals. The only time he did not see the witch was whenever he was in his dorm. He tried to avoid her, tried to hide from her and on more than one occasion, pretended he did not hear her call his name or tug on his sleeve to grab his attention. After the first week of classes, he had given up and relented to her constant presence. 

He glanced at her again. She was bouncing on the balls of her feet as the instructor began outlining the basic safety rules to flying. She was energy and life incarnate and, as much as he liked his peace and solitude, he couldn’t help but find comfort in her constant chatter whenever they were together. He rarely spoke and she was rarely silent and it oddly reminded him of his sister. 

A stab of pain hit him in the vicinity of his heart. His older sister. He wished he had left on better terms with her. Damn it, he wished he had said goodbye before boarding the plane. They had been so close growing up and while he was at school, she had been his hero, someone he aspired to be, someone to make proud of him. Then she finished school, became an adult and everything changed. It had been at least two years since he had last had a good conversation with his sister. No, that wasn’t true. They had one conversation a few months before he left and it had felt good, it had felt like they were the closest of siblings again. 

“I said mount your brooms!” The instructor barked. 

Kyuhyun felt a nudge and he glared at the witch at his side who was already straddling the broom.

“Kyuhyun! Pay attention,” she said with a roll of her eyes.

Kyuhyun barely resisted the urge to roll his own eyes as he mounted his broom. The instructor called out more instructions of how to kick off and for them to do so and try maneuvering about. Kyuhyun watched as the other students struggled to get off the ground. He was surprised to find Taeyeon lifting off without any difficulty at all. When the instructor looked at him and looked ready to yell some more, Kyuhyun kicked off the ground, hovering several feet above the other students just to save his ears from a lecture. 

The instructor’s eyes widened in surprise. Kyuhyun realized then his misstep. How many times now had he been told how odd it was that he could wield magic? He should have played dumb, pretended he didn’t know how to fly. He immediately lowered to the same height as most of the other students, but the instructor’s gaze rested on him, considering, before turning his attention to the other students, barking out more orders.

“Oh, I wish he’d let us fly around higher,” Taeyeon sighed as she released one hand from the broom to play with the chain of her necklace, “This is so restricting.”

Kyuhyun turned his attention to the witch. He knew how to fly because he had been raised outside of Asia. What was her reason for being able to fly so easily? Despite wanting to keep his distance from everyone, his curiosity reared its head and demanded attention.

“Is it?” He asked casually,

“I understand the precautions, but if we don’t get to go higher than at least a metre tomorrow, I’ll bash him over the head with a broom,” Taeyeon muttered as she returned her hand to the broom, slowly maneuvering around Kyuhyun.

 “Taeyeon,” Kyuhyun ventured tentatively as the instructor paid more attention to the students having problems levitating. “You never used magic until you came here, correct?”

“Yup,” she piped as she tested immediate stops with the broom,

“And, aside from our classes, did you know anything about magic prior to coming to Asadal?” Kyuhyun asked,

“Nothing whatsoever,” Taeyeon said, “I went to muggle schools until last year. I fast-tracked through high school so I was able to graduate a year early.” She stopped right beside Kyuhyun and looked at him directly, “Why?”

“How do you know how to fly a broomstick?” Kyuhyun asked bluntly,

Taeyeon glanced at the other students. Once she was assured that no one was paying them any heed, she answered quietly, “My father used to play for the national Korean Quidditch team.”

Kyuhyun raised a brow, was about to question why she had lowered her voice before deciding otherwise. He knew what it was like to hide an association with a well-known person. He had done it often enough with his relationship with his sister. He hadn’t want others to know their connection, didn’t want to be defined by the fact he was related to her. He gave a small nod, understanding completely with why Taeyeon had chosen to hide her Quidditch connection.

“I guess there’s really no point in trying to hide it,” she murmured as if answering his thoughts, “People will find out eventually, especially once I get on the team and the season starts. My dad would move mountains to make each and every one of my games.”

Kyuhyun cocked his head, “You’re pretty sure about yourself getting on the team,” he said, “Are you that good or is everyone else that bad?”

A flash of fiery temper went through her eyes before she swallowed whatever retort had come to mind. She began slowly flying around him again, “Well, I guess you’ll just have to come to tryouts and find out for yourself.”

Kyuhyun released the broom handle to cross his arms, “I am not trying out for the team.”

She halted and rolled her eyes, “I wasn’t going to suggest you do. I’m going and I want you there to support me.”

“You can tryout and, if you’re so positive you’ll make the team, then you hardly need the support,” Kyuhyun drawled,

“A friend would come and support me,” Taeyeon stated,

“I never said I was your friend,” Kyuhyun reminded, “You declared that all on your own.”

Kyuhyun kept his expression schooled while inside he was rolling his eyes. The witch had come into his life, bombarding on his space and demanding friendship. He had relented simply because it had been easier than resisting and dodging her attention. 

Taeyeon gave a curt nod as she dismounted, jumping the two feet to the ground. Snatching her broom from the air, she threw him a calm glance, 

“I’ll see you later then. I need to grab my gear before tryouts,” Taeyeon said as she turned to leave,

“You don’t need to give me an update on everything you do or plan to do,” Kyuhyun replied.

He saw the set of her small shoulders stiffen, her slender fingers grip the broomstick tighter. If she had been facing him, Kyuhyun was almost positive that sparks would be in her gaze, dark and dangerous. He had seen the fire in her eyes before, when she was frustrated or angry. Every time, she would calm herself and the flames of temper would disappear from her eyes. He knew that as her back was turned to him, she was putting a leash on her hidden temper, refusing to give in and actually get angry. 

Slowly, her frame relaxed even as her hand remained tight around the wooden handle. She walked away without another word. She spoke to the instructor briefly before heading back towards the residence.

Kyuhyun didn’t understand why she kept expecting things from him, reminding him that ‘a friend would do this’ and ‘a friend would do that’. For two weeks he had remained silent, simply going along with whatever idea came to her head, but all he wanted to say was that he wasn’t her friend. Finally, he had said it. And for some reason his stomach began to turn.

As the witch got smaller in the distance, he pushed away the sick feeling he had growing in his stomach, realizing belatedly that it was guilt that nagged. She had been the pushy one. She had been the one to assume all kinds of things. He was just setting her straight. It wasn’t his fault she had gotten hurt; she had set herself up for it by expecting so much from him. So, why did he feel guilty anyway?

His gaze shifted from her to the instructor who was barking more orders. He would concentrate on the lesson at hand and then move on with his life.


Even though it was already mid-March, the weather was still cold and flying around, the wind whipping against any exposed skin, made it even colder. Taeyeon pulled on the dark chocolate-coloured, leather flying gloves her dad had sent her the previous week. She had woken up to find her beloved eagle owl tapping at the window with its beak. When she had opened the package, she had felt they were both a gift and a curse. Her dad had given her the gloves because she had wanted it, because it meant he believed she'd use them. Also, it made her wonder what would happen if she didn't make the team, if the gloves remained in her dresser drawer.

With her broom idle on the ground, she ran her hand through her short locks, pulling them back into a tie as best she could, knowing how her hair could impede her vision while she was flying. She glanced at the other fliers. There were easily more at the tryouts than at the flying lessons. As her gaze briefly passed over them, she knew that most were from the older years. She grabbed the chain around her neck and played with it thoughtfully. She couldn't be too arrogant against the other fliers; it would lead to her failure. 

They were all gathered close to the centre of the pitch, some people in pairs or groups, talking and showing off their gear, brooms or jerseys. She turned her attention away from them, squatting down to tighten her boots and shin pads. Her pants were black and formed to her hips and legs. She wore a loose, white, long-sleeved shirt, the front had an ironed-on image of the national team's logo - a red and blue taegeuk with wings like a Snitch. On the back were ironed-on, black prints: the surname "Kim" in roman letters and the number "9".

"Whoa! You have a Kim Daejin shirt!" One of the other fliers ran up to her, "They only made five of these... and the sleeve is signed!"

Taeyeon smiled silently.

"Is it true that the ink is magical? It'll never fade?" The flier asked, bouncing up and down excitedly,

"It hasn't so far," Taeyeon replied, trying to think of a way to draw attention away from her jersey.

"That's so awesome! How did you get one?" The other inquired,

Taeyeon blinked before busying herself with her shin pads again even though she had just adjusted them; "Oh, you know... how the other four got theirs."

"Stop bothering her, can't you tell she doesn't want to talk about her shirt?" A familiar voice drawled.

Taeyeon froze and she slowly glanced up, up, up until she found herself looking at the under-side of Cho Kyuhyun's profile. She stood up just as the other flier was opening his mouth to retort. Kyuhyun raised a single brow, his expression bored, his eyes dangerous. The flier closed his mouth. He cleared his throat, muttered "cool shirt" and walked away.

Taeyeon turned her attention completely to Kyuhyun. A hundred sentences went through her head. Eventually, Taeyeon settled for silence. She folded her arms and, although her body was angled towards him, her face stared past him. 

"You're not a pushy person. Indeed, you're more shy than anything," Kyuhyun stated, his tone flat, as he stared at her even as she refused to look at him, "Your temper, however, is probably similar to a firestorm, yet you keep it all in, hold it all in. I would question why you do not act as you truly are, and yet, I can sympathize."

Taeyeon jolted slightly, surprised. Her wide gaze swung towards him, "You can?"

Kyuhyun wrapped his arms about his torso, "Indeed, but after a while, I hope you learn not to care what other people think and simply live your life as yourself."

"Is that what happened to you? You stopped caring what other people thought about you?" Taeyeon asked quietly,

Kyuhyun blinked, stared silently for a few seconds. Eventually, he said softly, "I found it easier to live like this than any other way."

Taeyeon stared, not knowing what surprised her more: hearing for the first time actual emotion in the wizard's voice or having him read her so well. The emotion in his voice was subtle, barely a trace, but it had been there. To have been understood, and so correctly, was startling and had never happened before in her life. 

"Why are you here, Kyuhyun?" She asked quietly, her voice more tentative and docile than Kyuhyun had ever heard since he had met her,

"Because my friend asked me to come and I had said no," Kyuhyun answered, his voice plain once more,

"You were right, I was too pushy," Taeyeon admitted,

"And I'm a jerk," Kyuhyun countered, "Or, so I've been told. However, I believe friendship is about accepting a person, faults and all... well, that's another thing I've been told?"

Taeyeon offered a hesitant, small smile, "I wouldn't know much about friendship."

Kyuhyun raised a brow, silently questioning her statement. He might have thought she was being modest, but the way her eyes seemed to look so sad, he knew she was being completely honest. Before he could decide whether or not to asked her more, she turned her head the other way,

“That must be the team!” Taeyeon whispered excitedly.

Kyuhyun followed her gaze and saw the four men entering the pitch from the doors which led from the change rooms. Dressed in their school jerseys and gear, their brooms were in their hands as they approached the center of the pitch. A hush went out amongst those wishing to try out. At the forefront strode two fliers. One had a larger build, his muscles evident beneath his gear, his head shaved close to the skull. The other was most familiar.

“Sungmin,” Kyuhyun murmured,

Taeyeon glanced at him, “Who?”

“The guy in the front, with the half-head of hair? That’s my roommate,” Kyuhyun explained quietly, “I’m guessing there are three opening spots.”

Taeyeon’s eyes swept over the fliers, “No, there’s only two.”

“I may not be trying out, Taeyeon, but I know how many players there are on a Quidditch team,” Kyuhyun drawled,

“I know, but there are only two opening spots,” Taeyeon insisted.

The players stopped before them, standing side-by-side as they regarded the fliers before them. Kyuhyun caught the startled expression on Sungmin’s face when their gazes locked for a heartbeat. The third year regained his composure fast, turning his attention elsewhere. 

The other player who had walked up beside him, was the one to speak, “I see some familiar faces today and some new ones,” he spoke, his voice booming without the use of magic; “For those who don’t know me, I’m Kim Youngwoon, but I’m called Kangin because I’m that awesome as a player.” 

He grinned as the others laughed and one of the other players elbowed him playfully.

“I was captain of the Quidditch team during my second and third years. This will be my fourth year at Asadal and, thus, my last,” he explained, “As such, I decided it my duty as the captain to ensure the future success of this team even after I have graduated. I have passed on the captaincy to Lee Sungmin for this year so that I can help and guide him in the role before I graduate. The captain before me gave me this courtesy and I found it helped greatly in forming me into the best captain in Asadal University history.”

The other players groaned, rolling their eyes even as they grinned back and forth. Youngwoon, or Kangin, then stepped back slightly, deferring to Sungmin.

“As Kangin has just said, I’m Lee Sungmin and I’ll be your captain this year,” he said, “This year, we’re looking for two new players for the team. The spots we have open are Chaser and Beater. So, if you’re not up for either of these positions, I suggest you not waste your time or ours and leave right now.”

Sungmin waited as half of the players grumbled, picking up their brooms and leaving the pitch. Once he was sure no one else would leave, he continued,

“I know some of you may be wondering why there are only two spots open when there are only four of us present. Our Seeker is in the infirmary right now, but he’ll be back for the first practice at the end of the week,” Sungmin explained, “Now, those trying out for Chasers gather on that end of the pitch and Beaters on the other. Our very own Chasers and Beaters will be assessing each candidate and I will be going between both groups to assess for myself. If you have any questions, just ask.”

As the fliers began to split up as deligated, Kyuhyun began heading to one end with Taeyeon, “A Beater?”

“I can play any position, but I’d rather be a Beater,” Taeyeon explained,

“Really?” Kyuhyun glanced at her petite frame skeptically,

Taeyeon narrowed her gaze, “Yes, really. Then, my opponent isn’t a person, it’s just the Bludgers.”

“Kyuhyun!” 

Both First Years stopped and turned back to where the voice had come from. Sungmin came sprinting up to them, his broom in hand. Close-up, Kyuhyun was able to look at the Quidditch jersey. It was jet-black with a red and blue band around each bicep. Over the heart was what Kyuhyun guessed was the Asadal crest: a taegeuk with a dragon curved around the top and a fish curved around the bottom; behind the dragon were five sunbeams and below the fish were eight stars. Sungmin’s Quidditch pants were black and his gloves and pads were the same jet-black. 

“What was all that junk you said about Quidditch?” Sungmin asked when he reached them, continuing to walk with them towards the Beaters’ end.

“I still stand behind what I said,” Kyuhyun replied, folding his arms about his torso,

“What did you say about Quidditch?” Taeyeon questioned, narrowing a glare at the other First Year,

Kyuhyun glanced at Taeyeon before looking straight ahead of them, “Nothing you need to hear.”

From the corner of his eye, he saw Taeyeon begin to chew on her lip in what he assumed was an attempt to leash in her temper. He knew he had deliberately provoked her temper and, indeed, he was waiting for the day when she finally let it loose on him. Before they reached the other fliers, Kyuhyun wondered if her little head would explode from the effort of bottling her anger.

Kyuhyun sighed, knowing he drew Sungmin’s curious stare, “You’re allowed to get angry at me, Taeyeon.”

Taeyeon glanced at the other people around them, specifically Sungmin who had walked with them. Finally, she shook her head causing wisps of her hair to fall from its tie, “No… later, perhaps.”

Sungmin, who was trying to figure out the dynamics between the two First Years and, also, the meaning behind their relationship, had been silence since he first asked his question. He was completely perplexed. Kyuhyun, who was a complete hermit whenever in their dorms and even refused to meet their other dorm mates, was talking to the witch and with a sense of familiarity – slightly, but it was still there. 

“So, you’re trying out for Beater?” Sungmin asked,

Kyuhyun finally looked at the older man, “No, she is. I’m here for… moral support,” he replied, the words odd yet right on his lips.

Sungmin blinked. Now, he was really confused. However, before he could question the other man, they had reached the other Beater candidates and he could no longer show partiality. He quickened his pace to go ahead of them to address the candidates as a whole. He walked over to Kangin who was conversing with another teammate. The other teammate had short, black hair and a boyish face that belied the strength that was evident in his lean muscles.

“This is Junsu,” Sungmin introduced, “He is the Beater on our team. He and Kangin will be assessing your flying and skills today. I’ll be mostly on the other side watching the fliers with our other Chaser, so you need to make a good impression on these guys, because they’ll be helping me decide who will be picked as our second Beater.”

Sungmin nodded to both Junsu and Kangin to take over. As he turned to leave, he glanced at Kyuhyun. Almost immediately, Kyuhyun looked over at him. The younger man raised a brow in askance, but Sungmin merely mounted his broom and flew off to the other side of the pitch.

“The first hour, half of you will be flying for me,” Kangin stated, “And the other half will be hitting with Junsu. After the first hour, we’ll switch. Then, during the third hour, we’ll let loose the Bludgers and see what you guys can do when you’re putting both skills together.

“When you’re flying for me, I’m looking for quick reflexes, stick-handling and speed,” Kangin explained, “These are all important skills for, not just any Quidditch player, but a Beater. Some people think that Beaters don’t need these skills because they’re not racing around the pitch, but that’s not true.”

At a nod from Kangin to Junsu, the other player took up the talk.

“For me, you’ll be on the ground. I want to see your strength: how hard you can hit and how far you can hit. I’m also looking for a few more things, but I’ll keep those as my little secrets,” Junsu winked. 

His voice was soft and had a husky, almost raspy quality. Kyuhyun caught many witches watching the Beater; enraptured. He fought the urge to roll his eyes.

“You need to be able to impress both of us,” Junsu continued, “There are a lot of you applying for one spot on the team and there’s only one team in this school. You need to push yourself to be the best, because anything less than that will not make the team.”

The fliers began to split up, either going towards Kangin or Junsu. Both players began to take names. After Junsu had taken Taeyeon’s name, he looked expectantly at Kyuhyun, almost immediately giving him a curious gaze, 

“Name?” Junsu asked,

“I’m not trying out,” Kyuhyun replied, “I’m here for her.”

“That explains the lack of broom,” Junsu mused. He glanced at Taeyeon, “Kim Taeyeon, what’s your friend’s name?”

“It’s Kyuhyun,” Taeyeon answered, “But he’s not trying out.”

“I know, but considering he didn’t want to volunteer that information himself,” Junsu shrugged. He looked back at Kyuhyun, regarding him thoughtfully. Finally, he nodded, “Cho Kyuhyun-sshi?” Kyuhyun nodded reluctantly, “Nice to meet you; I’m one of your dorm mates.”

Junsu walked off before Kyuhyun could reply, “Okay, first one up!”

Taeyeon looked at Kyuhyun as she fixed her hair, “You haven’t even met your dorm mates?”

“Sungmin is one of them,” Kyuhyun answered,

“Oh, you really don’t like people,” Taeyeon stated, her voice lightly teasing.

Kyuhyun shrugged as Taeyeon lined up for her trial.


“Okay, brats! Listen up and listen good!” A tall, lanky man walked into the rock and wood lecture hall, his black and red, silk robes billowing around him as he quickly descended the stairs to the bottom and front of the room. “I haven’t been here for the first two weeks of school, but I’m here now. You can think Charms isn’t a difficult class or that it sounds like a class only for witches, however, you’ll soon learn that you are sorely wrong.”

He spun quickly at the front to face them. He pushed his long bangs from his eyes as his narrowed gaze swept over the class.

“You will learn one charm a week and at the end of every week, you will each be tested on this charm,” the man – the professor, Kyuhyun concluded – stated, his tone firm and matter-of-factly, “If you do not past the end-of-week test, then you will not be able to be tested on the next charm until you have passed another test the following Friday. If you do not past the end-of-week test, I suggest you don’t waste my time and stay out of my classroom until you’ve learned the charm.”

Immediately, students began scribing the professor’s outline of their semester. Kyuhyun merely blinked; could they not just remember it?

“At the end of each month, you will be assessed on all the charms you have learned that month – regardless of whether or not you have passed the Friday tests,” the professor continued, “Obviously, if you cannot take a test on a charm, you will not know how well you can perform the charm prior to these monthly assessments. You must be able to perform all of the charms on these assessments, at least adequately. If you fail at one charm, you fail the entire assessment. Should you be stupid enough to fail the month assessment, you will write an essay noting how you failed, why you failed and what you will do to rectify the problem.”

There was a collective, horrified gasp. Kyuhyun stifled a yawn which earned him an elbow-jab to his ribs from Taeyeon.

“It is now the third week of classes. That means you should be able to perform at least two charms,” the professor stated, “Chapters one and two should be completed by now which means that on Friday, you all will be tested on chapters one through three. And, if it hasn’t sunk into your brains yet, even if you do not pass the test on Friday, next Friday is the monthly assessment.”

“Seonsaeng-nim, you weren’t here for the first two weeks,” a student stated, 

“Yeah! How were we supposed to know we were to read the first two chapters?” Another questioned

He rolled his eyes, “Do none of you know anything about self-study? Just because I wasn’t here, did not mean it was a time to play. If you chose to take the time to be idle instead of keeping up with your studies – regardless if I was present to teach the class – it is not my problem if you fail the test on Friday.”

Standing akimbo, he looked at the students again. He sighed heavily, raising a hand to the bridge of his nose and pinching it in exasperation. 

“Very well, pay attention because I will only do this once. After wards, I will not do this ever again,” he stated. He lowered his hand from his nose only to impatiently snap his fingers, a wand instantly appearing in his fingers, “Chapter one is ‘nox’. It’s easier to get rid of light than create it.” He waved his wand, “Nox.”

The classroom was doused into darkness, the windows having been closed against the cold weather.

“Chapter two is ‘lumos’. Creating light. It seems like an insignificant charm, but it is perhaps the most useful charm in all of magic,” the professor said; “Lumos.”

The classroom was lit up once more. It was then that Kyuhyun realized that the lecture hall had electrical lights rather than the more gothic uses of candles that his school in Canada had. He knew there were only candles and such in the dorm room; he hadn’t thought to notice the classrooms, too.

“Now, if you missed my demonstration, it’s not my fault. I warned you and I stick to my word: I will not repeat it,” the professor stated, “Now, open your texts to chapter three. I want you all to read the chapter and take notes. We will begin to practice the next charm tomorrow."

"Why can't we start today?" A student called out,

The professor sighed heavily, raising his wand. He absent-mindedly flicked his wand, "Nox."

Two lights at the front of the class exploded, glass raining to the ground beside the professor. As the torrent of glass finished, Kyuhyun slowly straightened after having huddled over Taeyeon. As she straightened, she looked at Kyuhyun who was watching the professor peculiarly.

That is why none of you will be touching your wands in my class until you've read the chapter, understand correct procedure and know what can go wrong when using charms," the professor said, "The wrong hand motion, the wrong incantation - anything can cause this," he gestured to the glass now sprinkled on the floor, "to happen. Reparo."

The glass rushed up to the ceiling, sealing together to fix the lights.

"Now, open your texts to chapter three," the professor repeated, his wand disappearing with a wave of his hand.

Soft thuds echoed in the room as each student opened up their books to the designated chapter. Kyuhyun opened his text, but barely read the words as he subtly watched the professor who walked to the desk at the front of the lecture hall. The professor sat in his chair, raised his feet to the desk and crossed his ankles, taking on a posture of complete relaxation as he leaned back in his chair, lacing his fingers behind his head. This professor was, by far, the most curious that Kyuhyun ever had.

"Ow," He hissed quietly as he turned his attention to the annoying witch beside him who had been jabbing him in the ribs with her elbow again, "What are you doing?"

"You knew what was going to happen before he cast the spell," Taeyeon said, "You covered me, even though I wasn't close to getting hurt, but you still protected me because you knew something would happen. You never study, yet you seem to know a lot about what we're learning and, when we first met, you never answered my question about early acceptance."

"So?" Kyuhyun pretended to read the chapter, even going so far as to turn a page,

"Either you were raised by traditionalists or you weren't raised here," Taeyeon said as she pulled out her brush and ink stone,

"Traditionalists? How about I was raised by a wizarding family?" Kyuhyun replied,

Taeyeon opened up scrolls to take her notes. She paused at his question and blinked, "Not if you were raised here, Kyuhyun. If you were raised here, that wouldn't be an answer."

"There are some things I don't like people knowing about me," Kyuhyun said quietly, "They'll start... expecting things of me."

"United States?" Taeyeon guessed,

"Canada," Kyuhyun corrected,

"Cold," 

"Beautiful,"

"Very well," Taeyeon mused. 

They fell into silence as Taeyeon began to take notes and Kyuhyun pretended to read while, in truth, he was watching the professor, trying to read the older man, figure the man out. Taeyeon paused in her notes, brushing her hair from her face, not realizing she brushed a stroke of black ink across her forehead. She turned slightly in her chair to look at Kyuhyun. She sat in silence, watching him until he finally looked at her. Albeit, he looked slightly annoyed, but he looked over nonetheless.

"You already know this charm, don't you?" Taeyeon glared at him,

"Levitation? It's the first charm I learned," Kyuhyun answered,

Taeyeon sighed, "If I could read minds, I'd read yours."

Kyuhyun regarded her, a slightly bemused look on his face. He looked back at his book and pretended to read. Taeyeon quietly huffed, nudging him once more before returning to her notes.

...

"Just because I didn't mention it at the beginning of class, doesn't mean I can't change my mind," the professor stated as the class came to a close. He sat against the front of his desk, arms folded about his torso, "One three-foot scroll on the levitation charm due on Friday. You'll receive the test on Friday after you hand over the scroll."

"But that's the day after tomorrow!" Another kid cried out,

"Then, I suggest you don't procrastinate too much," he replied. 

The students began to pack up their belongings and move away from their desks to the door.

"Oh, oh... I forgot one more minor detail," He said absent-mindedly, causing the students to stop and turn back to look at the professor; "If any of you decide to shout out again in my class, then you'll see what can really go wrong with a charm." 

There was silence in the lecture hall, not a single student moved even a centimetre. The professor's tone had gone from serious to deadly. His dark eyes stared at them darkly, his lips quirked in a smirk that blended amusement with threat.

Five heartbeats passed before he said quietly, "Go," the single word a deadly promise.

The students scrambled out until the professor was alone with just two students: a witch and a wizard. The witch was tugging at the wizard's arm convincing him to move faster.

"I think I did good for a first impression," the professor stated, his tone suddenly lighter but still tinged with amusement as he pushed away from the desk.

"Seonsaeng-nim... you didn't even introduce yourself," Taeyeon said,

The professor blinked before chuckling softly, "Indeed, I did not."

Taeyeon glared at the professor with a peculiar flame in her eyes that Kyuhyun was beginning to recognize as her temper. She put her hands on her hips, "Seonsaeng-nim, common courtesy insists - no, demands, that you introduce yourself to your students. If not in the beginning, then soon after the first meeting."

The professor rolled his eyes, turning his dark gaze on Kyuhyun, "Is she always like this?"

Kyuhyun kept his expression schooled when Taeyeon turned her fiery gaze on him, silently daring him. "In the past two and a half weeks, yes," he held up his hand in defense as she raised a hand to smack his arm, "Our first meeting, what did you say?"

Taeyeon grumbled as she looked back at the professor expectantly, "Seonsaeng-nim?"

"You may call me Kim Seonsaeng-nim," the professor sighed,

Taeyeon sighed heavily, rolling her eyes, "Kim Heechul, Charms Professor."

The professor scowled, "You already knew?"

"The headmaster told me on my first day who all my professors were," Taeyeon said smugly,

"Oh, you're good," Kim Seonsaeng-nim shook his head. His gaze moved back towards the other wizard, "Cho-sshi, you should keep her around; she's smart."

Kyuhyun's eyes widened, finally expression a hint of emotion before his brows lowered, eyes narrowing; "How did you know who I am?"

"I read minds," Kim Seonsaeng-nim replied.

Both Kyuhyun and Taeyeon raised a brow at him.

"It was the first Charms class of the year and, while all other students were panicking, you sat there nonchalantly. While all other students were busily taking notes, you merely read your text -or, at least, pretended to read. You turned the page -once. In one hour, you turned the page once," the professor recalled, "Most importantly, you went to shield Kim-sshi before I even wrongly cast 'nox'. That means, not only do you know the charm, but you realized immediately that my wand motion was wrong. No normal witch or wizard would know act like that during their first Charms class. Ergo, you must be transfer student Cho Kyuhyun."

"So... you don't read minds?" Taeyeon asked, eyeing the professor suspiciously,

Kim Seonsaen-nim chuckled softly as he ran long, slender fingers through his long fringe, brushing it back over his head, "No, not at all. I'm just very good at details. Well, that and I have a best friend with a big mouth."

Kyuhyun stared at the Charms professor before slinging his bag on his back and folding his arms over his chest; "Park Seonsaeng-nim, History of Magic?" He guessed. Before more could be said, Kyuhyun gave the professor curt nod, slid past Taeyeon, walked up the steps and left the lecture hall.

Kyuhyun heard the patter of footsteps rushing towards him. He slowed down to the pace he knew suited his witch companion.

"The professor was completely surprised! Speechless! He doesn't seem like the type to be surprised," Taeyeon said once she had caught up to Kyuhyun, "I guess you guessed right. How did you know who he was talking about?"

Kyuhyun shrugged, "There's only been one other professor who's gone out of their way to talk to me."

Taeyeon gave him a side-long glance. For a moment, Kyuhyun was sure she was going to say something. Eventually, she shrugged and then told him about the day's menu for lunch.

...

On Friday, during lunch, Kyuhyun sat on the ground at a small table on his own. Chopsticks in hand, he quietly ate his meal amongst the loud student population. At the beginning of March, people had tried to sit with him or invite him to their tables, but he had merely cast them a look of disdain. Taeyeon had joined him, but he knew he couldn't fight her presence. It quickly became a well-known fact that Kyuhyun sat with no one during meals with the small exception of Taeyeon.

And, so, he sat alone in the vast cafeteria with its low tables and floor mats. The walls were almost completely wood and hanji, wooden beems interspersed, supporting the ceiling. However, despite the old-fashioned decor, Kyuhyun couldn't help but notice the electrical lights. He began to notice that even though the school buildings and rooms seemed to be in the traditional sense, there were touches of modern everywhere from electrical lights to electricity in general. Then there was his entire dorm room which was equipped like any other place in Korea aside from the doors which were wood and hanji.

He was half-way through his meal before a witch ran up to his table and plopped down on the floor right beside him, her broom beside her.

"Yes?" He said as he picked up his bowl of rice,

"Come out to the pitch with me," Taeyeon said as she leaned over and picked at some of his food with her fingers,

Kyuhyun hit her wandering hand with his chopsticks, "Get your own food. Why should I go to the pitch with you?"

"Aside from the fact that I asked you to?" Taeyeon prompted. At his nod, she added, "I want to go fly around and I have a feeling you're the best person to critique my flying."

"And why do you believe that?" Kyuhyun asked as he had to hit her hand again,

"Because you were the only other person who was comfortable on a broom during the flying lessons this week. And, I have a feeling that you've been flying for years, especially considering where you grew up," Taeyeon explained,

"And why do you need me to critique your flying?" Kyuhyun asked as he used his chopsticks to move a plate of food away from her,

"Because I am the new Beater," Taeyeon said and she grinned when Kyuhyun looked at her,

"Congratulations," Kyuhyun gave her a small nod as he pushed the plate of food back towards her, "You can have some food."

"Even though you said that with no emotion, I know you and I know you truly meant to congratulate me. So I will accept your food and say thank you," Taeyeon smiled, "Now, finish your food and come with me to the pitch."

"I know you must be elated after passing the Charms test before lunch, however, I should remind you that we still have class after this time for eating comes to a close," Kyuhyun drawled, 

"I know, I know, but I also know that you don't need to go to those classes, that you find the classes quite boring - well, most of them - and I can catch up easily enough the next time we study together," Taeyeon said, "So, there's no consequence if we skip a few classes to go down to the pitch."

"You are suggesting that we skip the rest of today's classes and go down to fly around the pitch instead?" Kyuhyun inquired,

"Yes," Taeyeon answered,

Kyuhyun remained silent as he finished his bowl of rice. Then, he carefully placed his chopsticks on his tray and gracefully stood up as he picked up his tray in one hand and his bag in the other. He used one hand to sling the strap of his bag over his shoulder. He glanced down at the witch still picking at his food,

"Are we going to the pitch?" Kyuhyun asked,

Taeyeon jumped to her feet, grabbing her broom as she went.

After Kyuhyun put away his tray, they headed out towards the back fields behind the residence building.

"So, why didn't you try out for the team?" Taeyeon inquired as they trudged through the large expanse of grass towards the Quidditch Pitch.

"Why should I have?" Kyuhyun countered,

"You could have easily gotten onto the team," Taeyeon said, "If you've been flying for years - as I suspect and you have yet to deny - and most likely one of the better fliers out of all those people who were in the pitch a few days ago. Of course, aside from myself."

Kyuhyun was silent a moment, contemplating what to tell the witch. One of the perks of moving and going to a school where no one knew him was that no one knew him, no one knew what he had done, who he was or who his family was. He didn't want to make friends, didn't want people to know him. However, the little witch walking beside him had forced her way into his life and he was finding himself more and more reluctant to shove her out of it.

"The way you flew during the try-out. You were clearly the best out of the Beater candidates," Kyuhyun recalled, "Your steering is completely controlled and your reflexes are impecable. When you were on the ground, you were able to hit the Bludgers hard and far. Also, I'm not completely positive, but I'm sure you aim when you hit."

"My aim is approximately 75% accurate," Taeyeon confirmed,

"Your father taught you, didn't he?" Kyuhyun asked,

"That he did," Taeyeon said, her voice growing soft; "I'm an only child and, when my dad would come home from his games, he'd give me a play-by-play on what happened during the matches. During the off-season, he would spend all of his time with me, especially when I didn't have school. By the time I could steadily walk on my own, he had me on a training broom."

"You never complained? Never wanted... dolls and stuffed toys?" Kyuhyun inquired,

Taeyeon looked at him as they continued walking. Once she was sure he had asked sincerely instead of mockingly, she nodded as if to assure herself and, then, answered, "At first, when I began primary school. I realized the girls were always talking about the new dolls their mothers bought them and I had more in common with the boys who watched Quidditch games on the wiz-vision." 

Her gaze dropped to the grass, trusting Kyuhyun to guide her correctly. She began passing her broom from one hand to the other; "And, I know how it sounds. It sounds as if my dad was trying to turn me into the son he never had, but that's not how it is. Quidditch is all he knows, it's his passion and he wanted to share that with me." She laughed softly, "He tried to give me dolls once."

"Your words suggest it didn't work," Kyuhyun stated,

"I turned them into a miniature Quidditch team," Taeyeon confessed. She sighed softly before nudging him with her elbow, "We were talking about you and Quidditch, not me and Quidditch."

"Quidditch, do you enjoy it?" Kyuhyun asked,

"Of course," Taeyeon answered,

"Even if you're competing?" Kyuhyun prompted,

"Even better," Taeyeon replied,

"I hate competing in Quidditch," Kyuhyun explained, "You grew up with Quidditch as a sport and I grew up with it because of school. However, it's a past time, a hobby. I like the analytics, the mathematics of game play and I like flying because it gives a sense of freedom. I don't want to ruin any of that by doing it competitively."

"That... makes sense," Taeyeon said. She paused and added, "Thank you for telling me. Now, I won't bug you about Quidditch."

"Good, because if you want me to critique your flying, I'm not going to be nice," Kyuhyun warned,

"You? Nice? Never would have assumed such a thing," Taeyeon laughed softly.

They continued on towards the Quidditch Pitch.

...

I believe I have made a friend.

Whether that good or bad, that remains to be seen.

I must be more vigilant now.

Take care, my dear friend.

We must speak in the flames soon.

Putting his quill in its place, Kyuhyun stood from his desk, folding his letter as he walked towards the window. Opening the window, he whistled and allowed the wind to carry his tune. It wasn't long before a dark shadow rose up before the moon, growing larger as it approached.

"I have got to learn how you do that."

Kyuhyun's heart nearly jumped out of his ribcage, having never heard the room's door open. He waited a five-count and for his heart to slow down to a normal pace before he turned slightly to face the door and his roommate.

"I've been training Sam for years," Kyuhyun said just as the crow landed on the sill, getting close enough to rub its head against Kyuhyun's arm. He turned back towards the bird, handing it the letter, "He knows me and I know him," Kyuhyun said as he brushed a finger over the sleek, soft feathers on its black head, "He's always there for me, even when it feels no one else is..."

Sungmin remained silent, barely breathed as he stood just inside the door, his shoulder against the wall and his fists shoved in his pockets. He wondered if the younger man was even aware of what he had just said, just revealed. He watched as Kyuhyun smiled at the bird with a gentle affection that caused his heart to turn over. The younger man was becoming more intriguing with each day that passed and just as irritating. He was a recluse in their dormitory and, yet, he had gone to the Quidditch try-outs to support his friend. 

That situation still confused Sungmin. Who was his friend? Was there something more than just friendship between them? He shook his head to clear his thoughts, not wanting to have animosity against his new team member.

"Hey Kyuhyun," he said slowly as the crow lifted off the window sill.

"Hmm?" He closed the window and turned back, walking towards his desk,

"The guys want to meet you," Sungmin said, "Well... guy. The other one is in the infirmiry."

"Sungmin," he sighed, "I told you before -"

"You don't get a choice anymore," Junsu burst into the room, pushing past Sungmin to get at Kyuhyun.

"What?" Kyuhyun asked, his tone going up an octave when Junsu bent over and picked him up, slinging him over his shoulder, "What are you doing?" Kyuhyun tried to wriggle out of the older man's strong hold as he was being carried out of the room, "Sungmin! Help me!"

Sungmin felt a protective urge rise within him. He shoved it down before laughing, his fox-like eyes dancing with amusement, "Me? Against a Beater? Sorry, Kyuhyun, no can do."

"How much trouble would I get in if I used magic against him?" Kyuhyun questioned just before Junsu threw him down on one of the couches,

"A lot," Sungmin replied,

Kyuhyun sighed as he pushed back his hair by running his hand through it, "I thought as much."

Junsu plopped down on another couch. He propped an elbow on the armrest, rested his chin in his hand and stared intently at the younger man, "Okay, Cho Kyuhyun - talk."

Kyuhyun blinked before raising a single brow, "Talk?" He glanced at Sungmin who stood in the doorway to their room,

Sungmin shrugged and smiled at him.

Ignoring the way his pulse jumped as if he had been scared again, Kyuhyun looked back at the other man, "I'm not going to be able to go to sleep until we talk, am I?"

"Not even a single wink," Junsu confirmed, his husky voice warm with amusement,

Kyuhyun sighed heavily. Next year, he was definitely going to request a single dorm. "Fine, what do you want to talk about?"

"You and Kim Taeyeon, is she your girlfriend?" Junsu grinned,

Kyuhyun rolled his eyes.

It was going to be a long night.

...


(Next, Chapter 3: Stressed)


...

A/N: As always and from this point on, any familiar terms or spells belong to JK Rowling and these stories are in no way affiliated with the HP Franchise. I just play in the world she created.

Thursday, June 27, 2013

[M16] From Ashes

words: 8673
rate: PG13
(16th cycle of the Mourning Song series)


16th Cycle: From Ashes


Sat in the quiet park
in the spot we used to sit
closed my eyes and thought of you,
yeah, I couldn't help it.

The next morning; Wednesday; Fourth Week of November 20XX

He felt like a changed man. For the first time in so long, he knew who he was, what he was. For the first time in a long time, he didn’t feel even a bit of emptiness.

Sitting at his desk in his large but windowless office, the heir to the Jo Shipping Company sat in his large, leather chair and surveyed his surroundings. Even though he had regained his memories, filling in the gaps of his mind and soul, Kyuhyun couldn’t help but feel just a little perverse as he sat in his office. He had done so almost every day for almost a year and, yet, it felt as if he were doing it for the first time. Regaining his old identity, he couldn’t help but feel slightly uncomfortable in the role and life he had taken up during the three years in which his memory had been sealed. Pushing away the perturbed thoughts with a shake of his head, he pulled towards himself a thin, leather-bound portfolio, his eyes absorbing the words as easily as always.

However, as it had done all morning, his mind couldn’t completely focus with his task at hand. Thoughts and emotions pushed against his concentration, teasing his mind to wander away from work and surround itself in the treasured memories he had once more. With half a mind understanding the words before him, the other half was solidly remembering the previous evening.

After he and Zhou Mi had kissed, they had remained in comfortable – indeed, comforting – silence. Zhou Mi had come to stand between the heir and the desk, his hips resting against the edge as a hand absent-mindedly stroked through the soft waves of the younger man’s hair. Kyuhyun had pulled the chair as close to the older man as possible, his arms wrapped firmly around his former teacher’s waist, his face buried against Zhou Mi’s torso, just below his heart.

How long they remained in such a position, Kyuhyun never truly found out, but it had felt too short a time when Zhou Mi has softly asked in a teasing voice how long they were going to remain thus because the edge of the desk was not nearly as comfortable as he once thought it to be. Kyuhyun had then only tightened his embrace and pressed his face more firmly against the other’s abdomen as if he couldn’t get close enough to the older man. It was then that the younger man had admitted, in a voice barely above a breath, he was scared – wholly terrified – that if he let go, he would wake up and find everything had been a dream.

Kyuhyun felt the rising despair at the thought that, at one point, he would still wake up and realize the past few days were nothing more than a figment of his ridiculously sickened and deteriorated mind. The fact he felt stronger and healthier than he had ever felt over the past three years only further planted seeds of worry that he was falling into a false sense of security. He felt the despair being covered by a warm blanket as he recalled how Zhou Mi had patiently coaxed him into releasing his iron-like embrace and formally escorted him out of the office building to his car. There, Kyuhyun had found overwhelming comfort and peace at just having Zhou Mi hold his hand as he was driven home.

He blinked, realizing his thoughts had enveloped him. Suddenly looking down at the page before him, Kyuhyun was startled to find he had made appropriate connotations and edits despite his mind so consumed with thoughts of the previous night. With a sigh of relief, he put his pen down, closed the portfolio and placed it on one side of his desk’s top. His fingers had barely released the leather-bound folder before his father burst into his office.

“Why haven’t you been at work?” His father demanded, stopping a mere inch from the front of his son’s desk, eyes narrowed,

Kyuhyun felt the confusing mix of anger and confusion well up within him as he regarded his father. He still couldn’t even begin to comprehend what had prompted his parents to suddenly take interest in either of their children; let alone both. And, yet, despite all the previous years of deficient, indeed, non-existent affection, Kyuhyun couldn’t help but feel grateful towards what his father had done to keep Kyuri’s family together. He wouldn’t allow the irony of their own family being emotionally – and, in Kyuri’s regard, literally – separated to mar his father’s secret endeavours.

“Mother didn’t tell you?” Kyuhyun asked with uncertainty, his tone due to the fact that he didn’t know how to act towards his father anymore,

“That you have your memory back? Of course she did, but that doesn’t excuse your absence!” His father practically growled,

Anger, Kyuhyun quickly decided; “Doesn’t it? After three damn years of not knowing who the hell I am and you come in here acting as if something miraculous didn’t just happen to your son! I won’t apologize for prioritizing my regained memory above work!”

“Well, you better get over this fast because you have too much work to do to laze about daydreaming about the past,” His father retorted, “And you watch your language!”

“If you want me to stop ruminating over the past then tell me why, for the past three years, not once did you or Mother tell me the truth?” Kyuhyun questioned,

“It’s none of your concern,” His father replied coldly as his entire body stiffened,

“None of my concern? It’s my life!” Kyuhyun argued,

“Yes, but you are my son! I gave you life!” His father countered,

“And, yet, you let me believe for years – YEARS – that I was dying!” Kyuhyun exclaimed, pushing away the horror at hearing his voice catch at the end of his sentence; “Do you have any idea what it was like to live each day thinking it would be my last? Do you have any idea what it was like to live without hope for a future? To live without hope for anything!?”

“Stop being dramatic –”

“I prayed for death every time I went to sleep!” Kyuhyun yelled, slamming his palms on the desk as he jumped to his feet, hissing the words through his clenched teeth as he fought back stinging, hot tears. “People pray to live, but I… I prayed to die.”

His father remained quiet. Indeed, he didn’t even react, didn’t flinch.

Kyuhyun laughed bitterly, angrily swiping away his tears, uncaring that he was crying, showing weakness before his father, “I used to give you excuses. I use to lie to myself, defending you whenever I happened to think of Kyuri. From the moment we were born, she was removed from my life and I grew up without her. I grew up comfortable, not realizing there was an empty space beside me. Selfishly, I thought to myself that as long as you kept me around, as long as you continued to acknowledge me, then I didn’t need my sister… I didn’t  need your love.”

“Kyuhyun –”

“I thought perhaps that at least my life would mean something since I was your heir. Since I’m the one you kept,” he snorted with self-mock; “I guess things changed the moment I became a vampire, hmm, Father?” Kyuhyun snatched his suit jacket from the back of his chair as he rounded his desk.

“Where do you think you’re going?” His father questioned, slowly turning, his eyes following him unwaveringly,

“To visit my past,” Kyuhyun replied simply, slipping his arms into the jacket sleeves, his steps never faltering to the door.

“You may have your memories back, but that doesn’t mean you should go without Mijoon,” his father stated, slowly folding his arms over his chest; “Just because you’re mad at me, doesn’t mean you can start making stupid choices out of spite.”

Kyuhyun paused at the door as if he had more to say. Instead, he patted his pockets to reassure himself that he had his phone and wallet on him. Then, he opened the door and left, not even bothering to soften the slam of the door.

Once the windowless office was silent, Kyuhyun and Kyuri’s father slowly turned to walk to his son’s desk. His eyes, dark and their shape the mould from which his children’s eyes were borne, slowly swept over the small stack of thin, leather portfolios. From the past year, he had no doubt that Kyuhyun would not leave unless all his work was done. Indeed, even though Kyuhyun had been away from the office, he hadn’t fallen behind in his work.

He reached out and opened the top portfolio, quickly scanning its first page, the pristine white marked with black type and green writing. He let the cover drop close and turned to leave. He knew why his son did all editing and notation with green ink and he knew he never had to double check his son’s work. He walked out of the office, gently and securely closing the door behind him.

Went to all the places
where we had memories
and all the while thinking
how my life could be different.


If you were still here
I'd laugh a bit more.
If you were still here,
I wouldn't be alone.

“Young Master, at least take the umbrella!”

Kyuhyun run up the front steps of a building he hadn’t seen in three years. Once he was protected from the pale, goldenly painful sunlight, he turned to look back at his driver and grinned. He had left the Jo Shipping Company’s main building directly, without hesitation and without even considering making a phone call first. He had found his driver lounging in the security lounge, as always, not expecting to leave after driving Kyuhyun to the office just a few hours prior. The moment the car escaped into the city streets, Kyuhyun had directed the driver to the school and, from the brief glance in the rear view mirror, he knew he had surprised the driver by revealing he was no longer an amnesiac.

“See? I’m already safe! I don’t need an umbrella,” Kyuhyun called out, unable to help the unwavering smile,

“If you get even one little, itty, bitty sunburn, your mother will kill me and your father will burn my corpse!” His driver growled, having come out and standing by the driver side door, waving a closed umbrella at the Young Master.

Kyuhyun waved his hand as if jokingly waving away the driver’s words when, in truth, he was trying to wave away the sting in his chest. His parents didn’t care for him other than as the heir. Lowering his hand, he briefly recalled the melancholy that had seemed to infuse in his mother since Kyuri’s hospital admission. Well, perhaps one parent cared just a bit.

“I’m probably going to be here all day, so I’ll call you when I’m ready to leave,” Kyuhyun said; “I’ll be safe indoors.”

Kyuhyun saw the hesitance in the driver’s face and, he understood. Ever since his mother had come to collect him from the very spot where he now stood, his driver had been wherever Kyuhyun was. Whenever Kyuhyun was expecting to stay somewhere for a long period, such as at home or at work, his driver was always somewhere in the building. The thought of leaving a location without the Young Master was, indeed, foreign to the both of them.

“I’ll be fine,” Kyuhyun insisted. When the driver continued to look at him with uncertainty, he added, “You know I used to live here when school was in session. Nothing will go wrong.” Kyuhyun crossed his arms, “Taeyeon’s husband works here, if that makes you feel better.” He recalled that the driver had been in his family’s employ for several years, but he had been hired after Sungmin had moved away when they were still children.

“I didn’t know your cousin got married,” the driver stated. He still looked hesitant even as he said, “Well… I suppose there can’t be too much harm if you have family nearby… but you call the minute – no, the second you even begin to consider leaving. This school’s quite a way’s from Seoul, so it’ll take me some time to get here once you call.”

“I promise,” Kyuhyun replied solemnly. He rolled his eyes when he realized the driver wouldn’t even get into the town car until Kyuhyun was safely inside the school building. With another wave, Kyuhyun turned and, for the first time in three years, he entered Shim Jang Academy.

Kyuhyun didn’t even pretend his awe as his eyes wandered over every surface, every crevice of the large entrance hall. Light filtered in from windows and Kyuhyun edged around them, but never did his eyes stop soaking in every detail. Once again, he felt as if he had lived two separate lives. He felt a pang of nostalgia, remembering how he spent four years in the school. However, he also felt as if he were seeing everything from the first time, fascinated that such a posh-looking place could be a high school.

He glanced at his watch and knew that classes were still in session for at least another quarter hour before lunch. Unable to help smiling, he sprinted determinedly, pulling out his phone as he did so.

“Um… Kyuhyun?” The voice on the other end picked up the call, voice tentative,

“Tae!” Kyuhyun struggled not to exclaim as he sidestepped a ray of sunlight,

“You’re in a good mood,” his cousin mused,

“I have my memory back; nothing can make me upset at this point,” Kyuhyun replied; “What’s wrong? You prefer me an amnesiac? I guess that would be better since I wouldn’t remember all the times you were such a brat when we were growing up.”

“Oh, shut up,” she snapped and Kyuhyun could easily imagine her rolling her eyes,

“Now you sound like my cousin,” Kyuhyun chuckled. Then, abruptly, he stopped. He stopped running. He stopped laughing. He stopped smiling; “But… you’re not the Taeyeon I remember, are you?”

“What do you mean?”

“I may have regained my memory… but that doesn’t replace the fact that I’m three years behind on everyone,” Kyuhyun explained. Slowly, as if in a trance, he moved to lean his back against a wall, shrouded in shadows with sunlight all around him. “I know you as Lee Yeon, the famous singer. I know Sungmin as a stranger I met one night at a playground near my house. I know Kyuri as someone who I met one day and couldn’t recognize that she was my twin.”

“And, Zhou Mi?” Taeyeon prompted softly,

“I know him as my assistant, my shadow for the past year, the one who knows all my little quirks as my father’s heir… I know him as the one who is always three steps behind me, ready to support me or ready to catch me,” Kyuhyun answered, “His feelings may be the same, but I was able to love someone other than him. Now that I can remember Zhou Mi… I cannot help but see how different him and Mijoon are.”

“You’re not making sense. Yeah, Zhou Mi was a real sneaky jerk for being Mijoon, but that doesn’t negate the fact that he is Mijoon,” Tayeon said,

“How would you feel if Sungmin wasn’t in your life for years and, then, suddenly he’s back? You know you still love him, but you can’t help but be afraid he’s not the same person you love?” Kyuhyun challenged, “How would you be, Tae? Because that’s what it’s like for me.”

Taeyeon sighed heavily, “I was going to tiptoe around you for at least a few more days since you only just regained your memory… but if you’re going to be as annoying as you were when we were teenagers, then forget treating you like porcelain… geez, you were way more tolerable when you had no memory.”

“I missed you, too,” Kyuhyun replied seriously, but he knew she knew he was smiling.

“Yeah…” Taeyeon sighed in resignation. “Well, to answer your inane questions, have you forgotten what happened to me our last year at SJA? Did you not, also, feel awkwardly startled when you realized Sungmin was around again, but, now, he was one of our teachers?”

“Yeah…”

“Well? How do you think I felt seeing that idiot again and, now, I really couldn’t be with him because he was our damn biology teacher,” Taeyeon said bitterly from her end of the line,

“That didn’t stop you from breaking into his bedroom whenever you got the chance,” Kyuhyun said dryly when, suddenly, a bell rang loudly.

Taeyeon was silent before, she asked with disbelief, “Are you where I think you are?”

“Standing outside that damn biology teacher’s classroom?” Kyuhyun asked innocently. Before she could answer, he rapidly replied, “Yes.”

“And you didn’t bring me along?” Taeyeon accused,

“Hey! He was my friend first. I don’t want to share him right now,” Kyuhyun replied as students began to pour out of the classroom, shooting him curious looks.

“Share him? He’s my fiancĂ©! I don’t want to share with you!” Taeyeon snapped,

“Well, I’m here and you’re not,” Kyuhyun replied smugly as he shifted to see if any more students were in the room; “Therefore, I win and, this time, I’m not sharing.”

“You son of a … and how are you going to explain this to Zhou Mi?” Taeyeon questioned, “You can’t have Zhou Mi and hog Sungmin, too!”

“Well, that lying vampire isn’t here either,” Kyuhyun stated grumpily,

“Kyuhyun –”

“I’m stealing Sungmin,” He interrupted and, then, abruptly ended the call. Dropping his phone into his pocket, he strode into the classroom, wearily eyeing the wall of windows opposite him. Almost, immediately, however, his gaze fell upon the young man at the front of the classroom, wiping the whiteboards clean with a rag.

Over the past three years, he had seen Sungmin twice and both times recently. They had been brothers growing up and, even though they had gone their separate ways for a few years, they came back together as nothing had changed. All at once, he remembered Sungmin’s sad words at the playground and the stab of guilt was unbearable in his chest.

“I hope you’re a better teacher than I remember,” Kyuhyun called out then, suddenly so nervous he was no longer excited. His palms felt sweaty and it was hard to breathe.

Sungmin froze, his arm extended in mid-stroke against the front boards. Had he heard right? Was the voice who he thought it belonged to? Slowly allowing his arm to drop, Sungmin turned around, his eyes wide. Allowing the rag to slip from his grasp, Sungmin ran between the desks, not stopping until he had pulled the younger man into a crushing embrace. Before Kyuhyun could hug him back, Sungmin abruptly stepped back,

“Idiot, I’m an awesome teacher,” Sungmin scoffed as he looked away, blinking furiously. “So… I hear that you… um… you know… remember stuff.”

“Yeah… I guess you have your best friend again,” Kyuhyun replied before clearing his throat which was suddenly very dry despite the feeling of being choked by unshed tears.

“Yeah… well… I guess I missed you,” Sungmin wiped his eyes, complaining, “Damn, got something in my eye.”

“Uh… yeah… sunlight’s real bright,” Kyuhyun rasped, looking in the opposite direction and quickly swiping at the tears in his eyes, “But… I missed you, too. I always felt like I was missing something and… even when I became friends with Tae as Lee Yeon… well, I knew I was missing a different kind of friend. One like a brother.”

Kyuhyun was suddenly in another hug, this one even stronger than the last.

“If you tell anyone about these hugs, I’m going to throw you into the sunlight myself,” Sungmin threatened before releasing him again, this time not bothering to hide that he was wiping away tears.

“Don’t worry about it… I don’t want the others to know how much we hug any more than you do,” Kyuhyun assured, swiping stray tears;

“Guys are allowed to hug,” Sungmin muttered, running a hand through his hair before sighing heavily and just looking at Kyuhyun. His fox-like eyes swept over him, taking each detail as if committing them to memory; “It’s so weird. When I saw you at the playground and at the hospital, I knew it was you, but something was off; something was missing. Now, it’s different. I swear, I can see a difference.”

Kyuhyun raised a mocking brow, “You saw me just a few days ago.”

Sungmin shook his head as he moved to lean his hips back against a desk, shoving his hands into his pockets; “Before, there was this kind of emptiness in your voice, like you had lost something. Even though you tried to hide it, the hollowness was evident whenever you spoke because you didn’t remember your natural defences and, so, when you spoke, it was directly from your soul.”

Kyuhyun said nothing. Sungmin had described perfectly how he had been feeling for so long.

“And, the way you carried yourself. Before, there was a quiet confidence. You knew yourself capable and, so, your confidence was understandable, but you were quiet because you doubted yourself simply because you didn’t know who you were,” Sungmin continued. He locked eyes with his friend, his own gaze filled with mischief, “Now the quiet confidence is replaced with that annoying arrogance you always had before.”

Kyuhyun rolled his eyes, “I should have hidden the fact I got my memory back. You guys are mean to me, now.”

Sungmin laughed, “Who’s mean to you?”

“Your fiancĂ©e,” Kyuhyun muttered,

Sungmin laughed again, “Now she’s my fiancĂ©e and not your cousin and best friend?”

Kyuhyun crossed his arms, “No, I’m mad at her.”

Sungmin raised a brow in evident amusement, “Oh? I don’t think that’s ever happened before. What did she do that was so bad?”

“Tell me what’s changed since I’ve been gone,” Kyuhyun said then, blatantly refusing to answer.

Sungmin laughed once more, “You expect me to be able to tell you what’s changed in three years? Do you have another three years to spare to listen to me?”

“Maybe,” Kyuhyun muttered,

Sungmin’s expression sobered, “Why are you here Kyuhyun? Besides the fact that it’s the middle of the day, but it’s also the middle of the week. Why aren’t you at work at least?”

“I finished my work early,” Kyuhyun answered, “And, ever since I got my memory back, I’ve seen a lot of important people, but I still hadn’t seen you.”

Sungmin grinned, “Since I don’t have a class until class period, why don’t we go find the others and have lunch with them?” He paused and, then, smiled bigger, “Well, we can eat… you, hopefully, have already fed.”

“Not since last night,” he replied dryly,

“Zhou Mi?” Sungmin prompted,

“Who else would it be?” Kyuhyun confirmed and, then, added, “Unless you’re offering again.”

Sungmin pushed away from the desk to walk to the door, “No thank you. One vampire bite is enough for the rest of my life.”

Kyuhyun stopped him then by reaching out, his fingers lightly pressing against the older man’s neck, “This was also because of me… how long before it was healed and you could talk properly?”

Sungmin pushed his hand away from the silver scars that were subtle against the front and side of his neck, “This wasn’t your fault, and, if anything, you know you’re the reason it healed. You remember I couldn’t speak?”

Kyuhyun nodded, folding his arms over his chest again, “Yeah… I had to speak for you… that night feels like it was just last night. Even though I remember everything from the past three years, it still feels as if I was out in the snow at night one second and, the next second, I’m suddenly three years ahead… Even though it’s been three years, that night is so fresh for me.”

Sungmin clapped his hand on his friend’s shoulder, “But, I bet it also feels like you’ve seen Heechul, Eeteuk and Kangin.”

“Hyung? Kangin-hyung is here?” Kyuhyun gaped,

Sungmin nodded, “Yeah, he’s the Deputy Headmaster, if you can believe it.”

Kyuhyun’s eyes widened, “I can’t.” Then, he grabbed Sungmin’s wrist, “But, later.”

“Huh?”

“I’ll visit with them later. I came here because it felt right to come back,” Kyuhyun explained, “But, I wanted to see you most of all.”

Kyuhyun felt his chest tightened just at the remembrance of his confrontation with his father. His past and his present, the person he was and the person he became suddenly came crashing together in the moment his father admitted to purposefully hiding the truth. When he was still a SJA, repeating his final year, he had struggled to figure out who he was, tried to put purpose and meaning on his vampirism. During the past three years, he had been struggling to cope with his lack of memories. When he finally found success at working at his father’s company, he had also, finally, accepted that he would die soon.

Every time he was beginning to fit into his life, everything would change. He needed clarity. His first thought had been his first friend; his oldest friends; his brother. Taeyeon probably knew more about him simply because Sungmin had gone away for a few years, but Kyuhyun knew that Sungmin knew him. The older man would know how he would react, what thoughts would cross his mind. Sungmin would know what was natural and instinctive to him.

 “Yeah, I get it,” he said then, nodding as if he could read the other’s mind, “Everything’s happening fast, huh?”

“Ridiculously fast,” Kyuhyun sighed, “Just this past weekend, Kyuri was attacked by a vampire. She and baby Hina were close to dying. I was convinced to give my blood even though I still worried I might contaminate them,” He paused to take a deep, steadying breath; “Then, I got my memory back. I realized that, perhaps, my mother does have a heart – albeit, a small one. Zhou Mi isn’t dead and he turns out to be my assistant…”

“Everyone was so excited about you regaining your memories, but no one, not even you, stopped to consider how overwhelming everything would be… how shaken you’d be,” Sungmin squeezed his shoulder once more. He quirked a brow, “How close to shattering you’d be, even?”

“Last night I was close. This morning, I was close,” Kyuhyun admitted, instinctively shrugging Sungmin’s hand from his shoulder, unable to withstand his own problems without having to try and ignore Sungmin’s thoughts.

“And, at this moment?” Sungmin asked, shoving his hands into his pockets, understanding Kyuhyun’s reason for dislodging his hand.

“This is possibly the closest I’ve felt to calm acceptance of… well, of everything,” Kyuhyun said honestly, “The past few days, my mind’s been so chaotic and everything in here,” he grabbed at the material just above his heart; “Everything here is confused and hurting. Life hadn’t been simple before – before or after I lost my memory – but it was… simpler. Put together, both parts of my life are too much.”

“Well, then I will pull down the blinds over the classroom windows so you can at least relax and, we’ll talk,” Sungmin said as he strode to the other side of the room to do as he said.

“You know, our conversation in the playground makes so much more sense now; how you could differentiate between having a best friend and talking to them,” Kyuhyun said as he watched the natural light being slowly blocked out by the shades.

“I wanted to say so much to you that night,” Sungmin confessed as he made sure the windows were covered and the blinds secured; “Taeyeon was a little stalker and watched you a few times in the playground, but that was my first time seeing you since the night of the vampire attack. It was so hard to remember that you had forgotten me. It was so hard not to react.”

“It was only this morning when I was on my way to work that I passed the playground and realized it was the same playground we used to play in,” Kyuhyun said; “And realizing that the house I live in was my childhood home; I guess my parents never sold it after they disowned me after I was bitten.” He slowly followed Sungmin to the front of the classroom, “That night… I felt such an urge… such a need to be your friend.”

“I know, Taeyeon told me,” Sungmin confessed, “I don’t get to know about all of the text-conversations you two have since I lived at SJA, but she wanted to let me know about this one.”

“Lived? Where do you live now?” Kyuhyun asked,

“With Taeyeon. It was only because of my job was here that I lived here and she needed to be in Seoul for her job, but she’d visit me every weekend,” Sungmin explained as he rounded his desk and plopped down, pulling out a lunch bag from one of the desk drawers; “But, after I learned how the pregnancy’s been affecting her, I moved back home and commute here every day.”

“Why haven’t you two married yet? You were waiting for years to be with her, I was sure you two would have the shortest engagement in history,” Kyuhyun stated dryly as he plucked one of the chairs from a student desk and brought it to sit before the teacher’s desk.

Sungmin remained silent, withdrawing the lunch box from the bag and beginning to eat his meal.

Kyuhyun’s eyes narrowed, “Me? You didn’t marry because of me?”

Sungmin shrugged, “It wouldn’t have been right to get married without you. I wanted you as my best man and Taeyeon needed you to keep her from becoming a runaway bride.”

“She wouldn’t have done that,” Kyuhyun defended and, then, added, “Would she?”

“Probably not,” Sungmin conceded, “But, you used to give her a confidence she couldn’t find in herself. You were her entire universe for so long that, had we gotten married within the past three years, something would have been lacking.”

“Well, I can confidently say that her entire universe does not revolve around me,” Kyuhyun said, “In fact, she’s quite determined to make me share you instead of letting me be with you alone.”

Almost choking on his rice, Sungmin coughed as he got his laughter under control. He pointed his spoon at his friend once he had settled, “Another reason why we couldn’t marry without you; you make up the third corner of our peculiar triangle.”

“I still don’t like the thought that I stopped you two from marrying. Even Kyuri and Kibum got married without me,” Kyuhyun said and, then, added, “Although I never thought I’d be so upset on missing my sister’s wedding.”

“That was for legal reasons; they wanted their marriage legitimized for the twins’ birth certificates, so they got married in a chapel near the hospital,” Sungmin explained; “They always planned to have another one once you got your memory back.” He took another spoonful of food before he continued; “Unfortunately, your aunt and uncle would kill me and Taeyeon if we did a small chapel wedding and, like I said, it’d be wrong without you there – small wedding or not. And, we don’t have the money to have two big weddings.”

“And my sister and Kibum would?” Kyuhyun scoffed, “How much money can Hunters make? I recall Kyuri wondering where Kibum got the money for her engagement ring.”

Sungmin laughed as he shrugged, “They changed jobs when they moved here. Kibum finally accepted a Head Hunter job, but only because your sister isn’t a field agent anymore. She’s Head Tactician… well, as far as I understand it, she’s the only one who actually uses the title of ‘tactician’. All Head Hunters defer to her before doing missions.”

Kyuhyun stared directly at the other man, “I’m sorry you had to wait.”

“Stop apologizing,” Sungmin murmured, his mouth was full of rice and his spoon; “It wasn’t anything you could help.”

Kyuhyun looked at him skeptically, “Well… I know you guys didn’t wait for the wedding night.”

Sungmin, withdrawing the spoon from his mouth, pointed it at Kyuhyun like a sword in defense; “That was not my fault. I should be canonized for how well-behaved I’ve been all this time. It was your cousin who jumped me.”

Kyuhyun laughed quietly, shaking his head. He smiled softly and spoke sincerely, “I’ve missed you, Min. Even though I couldn’t remember you, I wanted desperately to have someone who I could talk to like this.”

Sungmin blinked furiously, suddenly dropping his gaze to his food. He cleared his throat but, when he spoke, his voice was hoarse, “Yeah… I know what you mean.”

When Sungmin finally looked up, his eyes were suspiciously bright, but Kyuhyun was determinedly avoiding his gaze, trying to subtly wipe at his own eyes.

If you were still here,
I'd remember how to love.
But I've been learning to live,
learning to be okay.


Sat in the old chain swings
in our childhood park,
Thinking of all the times,
we'd venture through the dark.

“I have to admit, I’m a little jealous right now,” Headmaster Park said as he leaned back in his leather office chair, his gaze occasionally dipping to the work he had opened on his desk.

“Jealous? I’m completely surprised,” Heechul drawled as he walked along the floor-to-ceiling bookshelves in the Headmaster’s office, casually stretching his limbs after a long day of sitting in the infirmary.

Ever since he decided to leave SJA at the end of the school year, he had begun to studiously review his textbooks in order to be prepared for any job and interview. With Hankyung working at the Council in Seoul, it only made sense that he should work in Seoul. Now, Heechul was aiming for a job at Seoul Memorial Medical Center.

His gaze moved to the pair who sat before the Headmaster’s desk; “The softer side of Kangin. Who would have ever thought?”

Kyuhyun, who had sought out Heechul once Sungmin had another class to teach, had accompanied the school’s nurse to the Headmaster’s office; Heechul sure that both Headmaster and Deputy would be there. Since then, he had sat down in one of the chairs before the desk and the Deputy had engulfed him in a hug and hadn’t let go.

“Yeah, Hyung, even I’m a little startled,” Kyuhyun said. He sat in the chair and Kangin, who had sidled onto the arm, had his muscular arms securely wrapped – one around his neck, the other around Kyuhyun’s head like a bandeau.

“You’re not allowed to judge,” Kangin practically growled, “The last time I saw you, you were worried about your damn bloodlust. Then, you go off and let a pureblood seal your memories. I didn’t even get to see you that night before it happened. So, you don’t get to judge.”

“I’m not judging. I just wasn’t expecting it,” Kyuhyun defended, trying to tilt his mouth so his words weren’t muffled by Kangin’s arm.

“And, furthermore,” Kangin continued as if the younger turned vampire hadn’t spoken; “Eeteuk, you can get over your jealousy because I’m not letting go of this damn brat. Every time I let him out of my site, he finds trouble.”

“I do not find –”

“When I first met you, you were being attacked by that damn pureblood. When I caught up with you again during summer break, you were going crazy because you thought you would kill your boyfriend eventually out of bloodlust. After the break, you came to SJA and decided to starve yourself. That boyfriend of yours leaves and you find out he’s been keeping secrets and you get royally pissed off. Boyfriend comes back, but that doesn’t matter because your bloodlust has turned you into a psychopath. Then, you go off and get attacked by the same pureblood as the first time!” Kangin had freed one arm so he could stick up one finger at a time as he listed the numerous ways in which Kyuhyun had been hurt after one of their secret meetings. Kangin replaced the arm around his neck and hugged him again; “Did I forget anything?”

“No,” Kyuhyun muttered.

He would have argued – he was 21 and quite the business man! He didn’t need coddling! – but, he was grateful that, the one thing Kangin left out was what no one else knew. The others could easily recount the same list of events that transpired during Kyuhyun’s second-senior year at SJA, but only Kangin knew how broken up he had been when he had learned of Zhou Mi’s secrets.

“So, can you let go, yet?” Kyuhyun asked, “Other than catching up with all of you, I did have a serious question to throw out there, get some opinions.”

“Ask away,” Kangin replied,

“I think he means without the hugging,” Heechul said as he pulled out one of the student portfolios from a bookcase, casually opening it; “You’ve been hugging him for the past twenty minutes.”

“Ask your question, Kyuhyun,” Kangin growled,

Kyuhyun succinctly explained Kibum’s theory of how he got his memories back. After the three older men thought on it, eventually, one-by-one, they nodded in acceptance of the theory. Then, he asked, “But, Zhou Mi told me that he’s been giving me small amounts of his own blood for the past year. If that’s true, how come I didn’t recover any of my colours?”

Eeteuk looked up from his work, “Zhou Mi? For the past year? How did he manage that magicians trick?”

“I knew he was a sneaky bastard. Ever since you told me all the stuff he hid from you,” Kangin muttered, fractionally tightening his embrace on the younger vampire,

“Zhou Mi was Kyuhyun’s assistant,” Heechul explained absent-mindedly as he slowly walked towards them and gracefully sitting in the other chair before the Headmaster’s desk. “He assumed the pseudonym Choi Mijoon and has been creeping around out little Kyuhyun this entire time. That’s why he always knew so much.”

“And, how do you know this?” Eeteuk questioned,

Heechul turned a page of the portfolio he still had; “Hankyung told me… eventually. And, besides, Zhou Mi didn’t want anyone to know.”

“That selfish vamp,” Kangin growled again, “After all I did for him and he hides this secret.”

“Any ideas?” Kyuhyun prompted, trying to take the heat off of Zhou Mi; although he still felt sore whenever he recalled the dual identities.

“It could be the amount. If he was only giving you small amounts, it could be that it wasn’t enough to release your colours,” Kangin offered and, then, added, “Then again, by now you should have regained at least one colour, or, at the very least, a tint.”

“Although it was Zhou Mi’s blood, it could be because your sealed memories, you weren’t able to acknowledge your feelings for him,” Eeteuk suggested, turning his attention back to his work; “From what I’ve learned from the both of you bloodsuckers, drinking the blood of the one you love has been the trigger to getting your colours back. So, even though it was still Zhou Mi, the love wasn’t fully recognized, so the trigger didn’t work. And, now that your memories have returned, perhaps you will eventually get them back.”

Kyuhyun glanced away, “I can see red,” he confessed,

“But, you only got your memories back the other day. How many times have you fed since then?” Eeteuk asked,

“Twice if you include the feeding that gave me back my memories,” Kyuhyun answered,

“Maybe your colours will return faster then,” Eeteuk offered,

Heechul snorted as he turned another page of the portfolio, “It’s because he began to fall in love with his assistant. If Zhou Mi gave him a bit of blood every day under the guise of the assistant, then, it’s been some time now that he’s been drinking the blood of the one he loves.”

“So, wait…” Kangin finally released Kyuhyun from the headlock-like-embrace, straightening his back as he perched on the armrest. He put a hand on the younger man’s shoulder as if needing physical contact to remind him Kyuhyun was there; “Zhou Mi has been masquerading as Choi Mijoon, obtaining the job as your assistant.”

“For the past year,” Kyuhyun confirmed,

“And with no memory of Zhou Mi, from your point of view, you were free to love whoever you wanted?” Kangin asked,

Kyuhyun sighed, predicting the course of the current interrogation. He nodded nonetheless.

“And, somehow, you still managed to fall for Zhou Mi? A second time?” Kangin questioned incredulously,

“Yeah,” Kyuhyun muttered,

“Eeteuk, is that why you never moved on?” Kangin asked, then; “We could only love one another so, even though I was potentially gone, you could love no one else?”

Eeteuk glanced up from his work, “No, I didn’t move on because I knew you were alive and was waiting for the day when you’d show up again so I could kill you myself.”

“Ah, the joys of love,” Heechul said sarcastically, his attention still seemingly completely on the portfolio before him.

“What are you reading?” Kyuhyun asked,

“That’s a student file,” Kangin commented,

“Not just any student file,” Heechul said; “It’s Kyuri’s file.”

“Isn’t this a breach of confidentiality?” Kyuhyun questioned, even as he tried to squirm out of Kangin’s embrace to see the file himself.

“I’m school staff. I can reason it’s part of my job as school nurse,” Heechul shrugged,

“Why are you even looking at my sister’s file? Wait – why is it even here? Kyuri never went to SJA as a student,” Kyuhyun stated,

When none of the other men said anything, Kyuhyun’s eyes widened, “What?”

“In the off-chance that your parents would be able to find Kyuri, they sent her profile to me in preparation of admitting her to the school,” Eeteuk explained,

“But she would’ve been too old to go here,” Kyuhyun said. Then, he added, “Wow… they wasted no time. They sent you the profile when I had to drop out of SJA, didn’t they?”

“Why are you looking at Kyuri’s file?” Kangin asked,

“After all that work we did together, she never sought out a job in the medical field in any capacity,” Heechul replied, “I always figured it was because she wanted some influence in the Council to protect Kyuhyun. However, since the brat has his memory back, she doesn’t have to stay with the Council. So, I wanted to look through her file again. Even though your parents sent the barebones of a file, I added to it the few months Kyuri worked and learned under me.”

“He’s looking for a replacement,” Kangin explained, “Heechul’s resigning at the end of the year.”

Kyuhyun looked at the nurse, “Really?”

Heechul finally looked up from the portfolio, “Time to move on. The brats here are little whiners who just need a good swift kick to their behinds. The last students I had who made it worth it to be here were you and Taeyeon. I became a nurse because I wanted to help people,” he immediately added when Kangin and Eeteuk snorted with disbelief, “Yes, I know, unbelievable but that’s what I wanted and I don’t get the sense I’m doing that here.”

“Maybe you’ll be my nurse again the next time I’m hospitalized,” Kyuhyun commented,

Eeteuk and Heechul glanced at him sharply and Kangin tightened his hold.

Kyuhyun smirked, “Too early for jokes?”

Thought of all the things
that we've done together
thought of all the times
when I should have said more.


And it was hard not to follow
when you walked away 
And it's still hard not to feel
like half my heart is missing.

“Looks like you have a visitor,” Sungmin slowly drove his car around the top of the drive that met Kyuhyun’s house at a circle.

Kyuhyun glanced up,” Ah, my boyfriend with a split personality.”

“So, you two are together again?” Sungmin grinned as he slowed the car even more so as to prolong his time with Kyuhyun and to further annoy Zhou Mi who was sitting on the front steps of Kyuhyun’s house.

“We never really broke up,” Kyuhyun shrugged,

“But did you two really get back together?” Sungmin stifled his own laughter. He was sure Taeyeon would hit him later once he related the story; “You should make him ask you out again.”

“That does hold appeal,” Kyuhyun mused as the car finally pulled to a stop, “One problem.”

“What’s that?”

“In the back of my head, he’s still my teacher first. Sort of hard to take the lead when I have a natural fear of getting detention,” Kyuhyun said, eliciting a laugh from the older man, “I’m still waiting to get in trouble for bossing him around as my assistant.”

“Well, you better get out there if you don’t want a detention for being late,” Sungmin teased,

Kyuhyun sighed heavily, “You don’t understand Zhou Mi. He will kidnap me and you’ll never see me again if he gets mad enough.”

“Then, maybe you should stop stalling and get out of the car,” Sungmin suggested as he exaggeratingly waved at Zhou Mi who had slowly stood up, arms crossed over his chest,

Kyuhyun sighed again as he undid his seatbelt, “Now do you see why I suggest we had our goodbye hug before we came here?”

“But, Zhou Mi knows we’re just friends. I’m very much devoted and in love with Taeyeon and you are… socially inept enough that there can be no one else to intrigue you other than Zhou Mi,” Sungmin said; “Not to mention the fact that I’m thoroughly straight.”

“I’m straight, too,” Kyuhyun said, “I’m just, as you said, socially inept enough that only Zhou Mi can intrigue me.”

“Yet, you’re still sitting in my car instead of getting out,” Sungmin said,

“The longer it takes for me to get out, the harder it is to make myself get out,” Kyuhyun muttered, idly playing with the door handle;

“Have you told him about Saturday?” Sungmin asked,

Kyuhyun shot his friend a glare; “You mean that damn society ball? Tell me again why you can’t take your damn fiancĂ©e and why I have to go? I’ve avoided those balls for years!”

“Taeyeon is a little protective –”

“You mean possessive,” Kyuhyun snorted,

“Yeah, well, that. She wants to protect me from the paparazzi for as long as possible,” Sungmin explained

“And, I’m food for fodder?” Kyuhyun questioned, “She won’t risk you, but she’s willingly throwing me to the wolves? What about the fact that the whole world knows she’s pregnant? They’ll think I’m the father.”

“They’ll also realize Lee Yeon is Kim Taeyeon,” Sungmin added, “But, hopefully it’ll pull attention away from the rumours of you and your assistant.”

Kyuhyun sighed, “Really? There are rumours of us?”

Sungmin nodded, “And you still not getting out of the car isn’t helping Zhou Mi’s mood.”

“I’ll tell him about the ball… tomorrow,” Kyuhyun muttered when he finally opened the door; “I’m only giving him one reason at a time to be upset.”

“But you’re cousins –”

“He’ll think I’d be attracting other women to me,” Kyuhyun explained, “As much as my cousin is possessive, Zhou Mi is even more possessive. One of the things he hates is me in a suit.”

“Which is fortunate since you hate suits, but why does he hate you in a suit?” Sungmin asked,

“Because –”

“How damn long does it take for two people to say goodbye?” Zhou Mi growled as he practically yanked Kyuhyun out of the car,

“Hi Zhou Mi,” Sungmin greeted lightly, his eyes lit mischievously.

“Sungmin,” Zhou Mi nodded curtly as he slammed the door closed.

Sungmin made the window open. He leaned over to see the other men again; “Don’t be so grisly, Zhou Mi, it’s not like he bit my neck again.”

“Don’t remind him of that!” Kyuhyun hissed even as Zhou Mi dragged him away from the car,

“Your room. Now,” Zhou Mi practically growled as he propelled Kyuhyun before him.

They walked in silence until the bedroom door closed behind Zhou Mi with a declarative thud. Kyuhyun casually moved across his room to turn on his lamp, fully aware that her teacher-turned-assistant was leaning against the door, arms crossed again. Kyuhyun had just managed to toss his blazer into the laundry basket and kick his shoes into his walk-in closet before he heard his name.

“Kyuhyun,” Zhou Mi repeated in a low growl. When Kyuhyun finally froze and tentatively turned to look at him, Zhou Mi crooked his finger at the younger man, “Your father called me this morning. How surprised was I to learn that the Young Master was not in his office as I believed but was out gallivanting in the northern countryside? Why didn’t you tell me you were leaving?”

“I didn’t want to bother you,” Kyuhyun shrugged, stopping a foot away from the other man,

“Bullshit,” Zhou Mi muttered as he reached out and wrapped his fingers around Kyuhyun’s tie, drawing him closer,

“I did it to go against my father, not because I didn’t want you there,” Kyuhyun insisted, “A childish rebellion, but I believe I’m allowed that since I’ve never truly gainsaid my parents before.”

“Well, that’s good to know,” Zhou Mi murmured as he snaked his free arm around the younger man’s waist, pulling him flush against himself;

“It’s the truth. Besides, going back to SJA… it was something I needed to do alone,” Kyuhyun insisted, “I did leave SJA alone after all.”

“I suppose,” Zhou Mi replied as he undid the tie’s knot and tossed the length of cloth away.

“I have another job for you if you’re idle enough to slum about my front steps,” Kyuhyun suggested as he batted away Zhou Mi’s hand which was now slipping open the buttons of his shirt,

“I miss when you were the student and had to listen to me,” Zhou Mi sighed and, then, added, “What job?”

“I… that is…” Kyuhyun tentatively slipped his hands around the older man’s neck, his fingers lacing at the back.

Zhou Mi ceased disrobing the younger man and raised a brow, “A vampire for four years and you still can’t tell me when you’re hungry? I do recall you being able to do so at SJA during the second semester.”

“Well, the past three years don’t count and…” Kyuhyun glanced away,

“And?” Zhou Mi prompted, making Kyuhyun look at him by pushing at the younger man’s chin with his finger,

“And you’ve been Mijoon for the past year,” Kyuhyun answered,

“So? You know me, Kyuhyun, regardless of what name I used,” Zhou Mi stated,

“I know but I haven’t told you I need to feed for the past three years,” Kyuhyun defended, “I’m out of practice.”

“Then, get back into practice,”

Kyuhyun sighed heavily, leaning his head forward until his forehead rested against the older man’s shoulder; “I do not miss when you were the teacher and told me what to do. Granted, even as an assistant you were bossy.”

“Well, how about outside of work hours we’re just Zhou Mi and Kyuhyun?” Zhou Mi suggested, nudging Kyuhyun’s head with his nose,

Kyuhyun raised his head only to glare at him, “Just Zhou Mi is still bossy and domineering. If anything, you’re even more bossy and domineering.”

“And you wouldn’t have me any other way,” Zhou Mi grinned, “Now, tell me what you need.”

Kyuhyun rolled his eyes, “Zhou Mi, I need to feed.”

“From?” He prompted, returning his attention to Kyuhyun’s shirt buttons again,

Kyuhyun shot him another glare, “From… you.”

“Then, let’s move to somewhere more comfortable,” Zhou Mi’s grin grew, “See? Not so difficult, was it?”

“I think I prefer you as Mijoon,” Kyuhyun grumbled as he let the older man lead him to the bed, “You were silent, waited until I spoke first, listened to directions,” he almost lost his breath when Zhou Mi pulled him into his lap, his knees straddling the other’s thighs, “And less bold in your treatment of me.”

“As you wish, Young Master,” Zhou Mi raised his hands to cradle the other’s face,

Kyuhyun slapped his hands away, “You said we’re Zhou Mi and Kyuhyun.”

“Indeed, outside of office hours,” Zhou Mi reminded,

“No, even during office hours,” Kyuhyun’s voice was a soft growl, “When it’s just us, you can’t call me that.”

Zhou Mi raised a brow, “Because it’s odd coming from me?”

“Because it should be illegal for you to call me that with those thoughts in your head,” he replied,

Zhou Mi blinked before a smile tugged at his lips, “I wasn’t even thinking illegal things until you said it… Oh, Kyuhyun, just what is going on in that head of yours?”

“It’s been three years,” Kyuhyun lowered his head, his lips brushing Zhou Mi’s neck, “What do you expect?”

Zhou Mi laughed before he felt the fangs pierce his pulse.

If you were still here
I'd laugh a bit more.
If you were still here,
I wouldn't be alone.
If you were still here,
I'd remember how to love.
But I've been learning to live,
learning to be okay.
I may never be okay...
without you.


(Next, 17th Cycle: Easy Prey)