“What is it like to be in love?”

“Free. It feels free, like there’s nothing that can stop me, nothing can hold me down.
It feels as if I can do anything because of love and I’m free of the fear of failure because,
even if I can’t do everything, at least at the end of the day,
there’s still me and him. When all else fails, love won’t.”

Reign on Me series

Sunday, September 12, 2010

[00r10] For Youngwoon...

words: 505
rate: G

Dedicated to those in the armed forces because supporting the troops becomes more important when it hits close to home and even more so when it hits close to the heart.


For Youngwoon,

There are times when I remember your smile and it lightens my mood.
There are times when I remember your laugh and it warms my heart.
There are times when I remember your embrace and it calms my soul.
There are times when I remember you are gone and I break down again.

But I know you are where you want to be and you’ll be happy.
But I know you will be all you can be and prove everyone wrong.
But I know you will work hard and be someone great.
But I know I will think of you everyday you are gone.

And I pray when you are having difficulties that you will smile afterwards.
And I pray when you are on the ground that you will stand up again.
And I pray when you have a gun in your hands that you remember who you are.
And I pray when you return that I will recognize who you have become.

You will want to know that there are new pets and, yes, one is a turtle.
You will want to know that the fans still support us and, yes, they support you, too.
You will want to know that our little actor calls everyday and, yes, he says hi.
You will want to know that our foreign friend is successful and, yes, we miss him, too.

I found that shirt you were looking for but I think it has shrunk in the wash.
I found the sneakers you were looking for but some of the dogs got at them.
I found the stuffed raccoon you bought me, the others were sharing it amongst themselves.
I found an old picture of us, it made me laugh and cry and I keep it under my pillow.

And I wish we could perform together because the stage feels a little empty.
And I wish we could sing together because the chord is missing your harmony.
And I wish we could be together because I miss your presence in my life.
And I wish we did not have to be separated like this because life is not the same.

But I hope you think of the fans as you strive to regain their trust.
But I hope you think of your family who support you through the good and bad.
But I hope you think of the others who feel your absence keenly.
But I hope you think of me and the precious time we are losing.

I miss when you smile and your entire expression brightens up.
I miss when you laugh and everything is suddenly made better.
I miss when you hug and the world just seems to retreat.
I miss when you are here and we are an unbeatable team.

So work hard while still being safe.
So become a better person while still being you.
So I will see you when you return while missing you everyday.
And, so you know, I am writing this to you because I…

… Just because.

From Jungsu.


A/N: This originally began as something for someone very dear to me who has recently left to join the army. As I thought about it, I realized this could be altered to be directed towards Kangin. Since this began so generally, it could really come from anyone, but I have my biases.


Anonymous said...

It's so beautiful! I love the rhythm and the wording of this, especially how each stanza has its own sort of beginning to each line.

You are awesome. That is all.

catherine ndja said...

I...I... I lost words....
this reminds me of my past bf.
it's hard to separate with someone we love
i really miss kangin.he's my bias,after all...

♥mtj♥ said...

this was just so genuine and beautiful and spot on and i am blinking back tears.

from everyone who has someone who they want to tell these things to...

thank you <3

marilyn said...

one word.
just explains everything someone would like to tell another who is leaving.
hope you're fine too with a person who's close to you having left to serve the country. (:

Anonymous said...

this is so sad
I miss youngwoon so much
I miss kangteuk --sobs
you're so talented!